She wants to retain control and thats her right. I think she sees it as a thing for her and probably always has and surrendering to it for you takes away something of it being personal to her. Now that you have discovered it of course it is now something she has lost a little control over so Im sure that she will in compensation go along with it with you. Question is how long has this private addiction to it been there and if and ho often she has already acted upon it. The good news for you is that she may have got that private personal quest out of the way experienced it and so can now share the fantasies with you without it having compromised her very personal loss of black virginity experience that she once controlled on her own terms.
She wants to retain control and thats her right. I think she sees it as a thing for her and probably always has and surrendering to it for you takes away something of it being personal to her. Now that you have discovered it of course it is now something she has lost a little control over so Im sure that she will in compensation go along with it with you. Question is how long has this private addiction to it been there and if and ho often she has already acted upon it. The good news for you is that she may have got that private personal quest out of the way experienced it and so can now share the fantasies with you without it having compromised her very personal loss of black virginity experience that she once controlled on her own terms.